Monday, January 3, 2011

death by trauma

i've died. someone managed to revive me. but who knows til when can i hold on?

i've fudged up real bad this term. ever since we broke up. all i could remember was that trauma he left me from our relationship. i've done nothing good on my subjects either. i just.. wanna die badly.

add to that the never ending chaos at home. i've tried my best. i've stood up and tried walking again, but will i still be able to get there?

even with the guy i love right now.. it feels insufficient. i still feel weak despite the love, care and attention he's giving me.

i've already pierced my hands as i've tried picking up everything and putting all the pieces together.

is there a hope for me now that i've fudged up badly?